I think my gf [22] wants to cuck me [21]

Ok she has not said it straight up be I just can’t stop the feeling that she wants to cuck me and I don’t know what to do

Here’s the evidence

One time she talked randomly was talking about this one hookup she was with put her hand on his dick and it was way to big for her and I got me kinda mad and we had a lil argument.

She told me she likes watching bbc gangbang porn and when I asked if that’s what she wants she just kinda smiled at me and laughed but said no but I think that was just to not hurt my feelings.

Not long ago she told me me she was attracted to big strong black army man who gave her the mf Covid vaccine and it turned her on and I did not kno how to take that too.

She made fun of of the guy who was my height and only stopped when she realized I was like the same height.

She saw a cuck video where a couple was gonna have a three some and couldn’t get up so the other guy who was way bigger and also black lol fucked the shi out her and he just watched and I like wtf and she said if that was me she would wait for me to get hard to do that

It def turns me on a bit thinking about it I just don’t want it to happen and then I feel bad about it idk