I don't know how many parts this is going to be/could be, but the further along I go in my life my biggest fetish/fantasy that won't leave my brain is my desire to be a cuck. It's also the one fetish I don't feel comfortable talking with in my real life. The longer I want to be a cuck, the more it's on my mind, the more I need somewhere to vent/talk to about it so here it is.
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I should start by saying where I think a lot of men's cuck fantasies come from. My love for BBC.
I was into BBC literally the first time I saw it in porn. When I first started watching I had no fetishes (except for big asses) so I just watched whatever was on the front page of whatever site I was trying. The first time I saw BBC was a video of a blowjob, where the girl struggled to suck on even the head but was wrecking her jaw trying to handle it. I was blown away. I literally thought "look at the size of that thing." and before I knew it I was beating off hard. I literally came thinking "how is he so big?"
I was confused at how I came so hard while paying almost complete attention to a cock and not the woman in the video. The next day I sought out the same video as an experiment. Was the cock what got me so turned on, or was it the girl struggling to take it. I watched it, jerked off to it, and couldn't come to a conclusion. The next day I thought, "I'll test it by trying to watch other videos with black guys in it." I barely watched the first five minutes of the first video before cumming hard again and I said "I don't know. the women were hot. It can't be the cock." For the next week I sought out exclusively bbc porn but not realizing why.
Finally I figured I needed to put myself through a real test. I turned on some gay porn and did my best, but couldn't get turned on. I was confused. Didn't understand my headspace. I couldn't be gay because I don't like watching two men have sex, but I couldn't deny my desire to look at BBC still. So I looked up videos of just solo black men jerking off and was immediately sunk into it. I went nearly two weeks with just jerking off to videos of black men playing with their dicks.
After that I came to terms with it. I really loved looking at black cocks and balls but I preferred videos with women in it. From then on in it was all I wanted to watch so it was all I did watch.
Only a few months into my new found fetish/interest I read a story about cucking. The gist of the story was a man cheated on his wife and she caught him. For payback she made him watch her fuck a black guy. He was bigger than the husband by a lot and incredibly rough with the wife, but halfway through the angry husband could see just how much pleasure it was bringing the wife. Then he became incredibly turned on watching his wife be dominated by a bigger man. By the end he was jerking off watching, the man cums inside of his wife and he immediately rushes over to start having sex with his wife. The experience was a massive turn on for both of them and they made it a very regular occurrence. I read that and immediately thought "fuck that would be amazing."
the more interracial porn I watched the more I thought "being fucked by black men must be the greatest feeling." So why not give that experience to your wife or girlfriend? If it could be a casual thing, or a gift. It didn't feel like sharing your wife, it felt like giving a special night. I didn't know anything about being a cuckold or even how to look it up. I only knew the one story, but it made so much sense to me that I kept rereading it.
When I finally saw a video that was titled something to the sort of "Cuck watched his wife get fucked by bbc" I blew a load in moments. I had to look up what a cuck was and the definition was basically "a man that lets his wife have sex with other men."
I had my reservations. It had to be under specific circumstances.
I didn't think I could take watching her suck his dick. It felt more personal at the time
It had to be with a bbc, it was the only thing that got the job done
I had to be able to watch or it needed to be recorded.
When I read the definition of a cuck, those three criteria immediately popped into my head, and if they were met then bam, there was nothing more I wanted to do than be a cuck.
But I was younger, and all of my sexual experiences with women were too great and when I was with my girlfriends I didn't even think about cucking. When I was home alone though, it's all I thought about. The more cuck porn I watched or even just interracial the more I loved it and wanted it. But I never felt the desire to be cucked by a woman until two specific women kind of made it seem like a possibility.
They'll be part two.