"I need this fucking cock inside me."
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Andre said nothing, just nodded as he moved to reposition himself behind her. Maya stayed on her knees between my legs, looking at me and holding onto my dick and one of my thighs for support. I grabbed her face and kissed her strongly, but her lips pulled away from mine as she shivered at the feeling of his cock brushing up against her pussy. My girlfriend's eyebrows furrowed in concentration to the feeling of his head circling her sensitive spots. She caught herself for a moment and looked into my eyes.
"Ohhh fuck baby. He's really gonna stretch my pussy this time."
"You gonna take all that cock?"
"Yess. OH! Fuckk yes baby I am." Maya had squeaked at the feeling of Andre starting to push his cock into her and then easing back out. He finally spoke again.
"I'm going to give you the full thing now Maya. You ready?"
"Ohhhh fuck. Okay. Whew. Okay fuck I'm ready."
“You sure?”
“Yes! Please fuck me with that fat cock baby.”
With that, Andre began to slowly but steadily push his cock into my girlfriend, sinking one inch, then another, and another, after another into her pussy. Within 4 seconds he had 5 inches of his cock buried inside her. I watched as her face contorted through a range of expressions as he sunk further into her pussy. Her mouth popped open and her eyes widened in fear and anticipation, then they softened and her mouth began to curve into an open-mouthed smile of pleasure. Her eyebrows then raised and her mouth reopened in shock as she stretched to take a 3rd inch, and then her eyes darted around in disbelief and eventually glazed and rolled back in hyperstimulation as he sunk a 4th and then 5th inch into her. At that she cried out for him and he stopped his progression.
"Ohhhhhhh fuck! Fuuuuuuck!!'
Andre spoke again. "You want more?"
"Yes!"
"You want it all?"
"YES! PLEASE YES! Fill my fucking pussy with that cock!"
Andre obliged. Resuming his steady push forward, he sunk a 6th and 7th inch of his thick naked cock into my girlfriend, pulled back out an inch, and then fed his entire cock into her, stopping with her ass cheeks resting against his hips.
“OHHHHHHH MYY GOODDDDD!”
“Fuck you feel good Maya.”
“Andre holy fuck your cock is so big.” Maya looked like she was too amazed at his size to even be able to enjoy it. “Baby, he’s filling every inch of my pussy oh my god!”
Hearing my girlfriend go back and forth between talking to Andre and talking to me was crazy. Here she was on her knees between us, her hands wrapped around my cock and her pussy stuffed with his, and she didn’t know what to do or who to give attention to. My cock was throbbing in her hand, and I guided it towards her face.
“Mmmm fuck this is amazing baby. I can feel him in my stomach. I want to feel you in my throat.”
Maya wrapped her lips around my cock and began to suck on it. Andre held still for a moment, allowing her to get used to the amount of flesh she had inside her. Nearly a minute passed, both of us held still, listening to the muffled sounds of my beautiful girlfriend relishing the attention and enjoying the sensation of having her mouth and pussy full at the same time. But the attention she gave me was short lived, because she nearly forgot about me entirely the moment Andre began to fuck her.
He pulled halfway out of her and then slowly but deliberately sank all the way back in. Maya pulled her mouth off my cock immediately.
“OHH FUCK YEAH”
Again he pulled out and pushed back in. Again, and again, and before long he had built up a steady rhythm. Andre was fucking my girlfriend, carefully but forcefully, and he was fucking her deep. Like the perfect little slut she is, she let her pussy swallow his cock fully, his massive size stretching into her in ways I could only dream of doing myself. I can only imagine how tight her little pussy must have felt around his thick and engorged appendage. Unable to do much more than hold onto me while he filled her, she cried out in pleasure, her words directed to him, and to me, and to both of us, without any thought or coherence.
“OOOHHH FUCK! FUCK! THAT’S SO DEEP! OOHHHHHH FUCKKKKKK!! BABY HE’S SO THICK! HIS COCK IS SO THICK OH MY GOD ANDRE!”
I held Maya in my arms while Andre fucked her. I could feel her hands shaking where they gripped ahold of me. I could feel her sweat dripping onto me. I told her what a good girl she was as I looked into her eyes and she looked straight through mine, lost to the pleasure of Andre’s cock. She looked so beautiful in that moment, the look of ecstasy on her face while this other man claimed her pussy as his own. She would have given him anything he wanted in that moment. Anything to make him keep going. His cock was heaven for her.
“THAT’S IT BABY FUCK ME! OHH ANDRE YOUR COCK IS SO FUCKING GOOD! I can feel you stretching my pussy fuck!!!”
“You like his cock baby?”
“YES! Oh yes baby I love his cock! He feel so good in me!”
"Shit, Maya you look so sexy taking his dick."
Maya smiled through her moans. "Ohhh thank you baby! Thank you.. fuck.. for letting me have this."
"You're welcome baby. Thank you for being such a slutty girl for me."
"MMM I love being a slut for you baby. I love the way you're looking at me. You like watching your girlfriend get fucked like this? Ohhh god baby he feels so gooood. I needed this so badly."
“Fuck, you missed this huh?”
“Ohh god yes! I miss getting this fucking dick all the time! He’s so fucking big baby!”
“Should I let you see him more often?”
Maya’s eyes widened. “Ohhh fuck! Really baby? You’d let me keep fucking him?”
“Do you want to?”
“Mmmmm yess baby oh my goddd. Please let me. I love this so much.”
“You like his cock the best?”
I’m not sure why I asked Maya that question. It sort of slipped out of my mouth before I realized what I was saying. I didn’t have any desire to be humiliated. I think I vocalized it because I could see the answer already in front of me. Now that it was out of the bag, I wasn’t going to run from it.
“OH FUCK! What baby?”
“Do you like his cock the best?”
My girlfriend didn’t respond right away, but she looked into my eyes, her eyebrows furrowed, and I could see that she was scared to answer. Even though we both knew the answer, she looked at me and searched me for permission to admit it. Andre continued pumping into her. Finally, she answered.
“Yessss. Yesssss baby he has the best fucking cock. He feels sooo good inside me!”
“Does he fuck you better?”
Maya’s eyes widened again, and her mouth hung open in pleasure as she slowly nodded. But a nod wasn’t enough, I wanted to hear her admit it.
“He fucks you better than I do?”
My girlfriend cried out in response. My taunting combined with Andre’s steady pounding too much for her to take.
“OOHHH FUCK! YES BABY! He fucks me so good. I’m sorry. I’m so sorry but he fucks me so much better. He’s better than you. His cock feels so much better!”
“Tell him.”
Maya never took her eyes off me as she addressed Andre. She stared up at me and spoke the words that I was terrified to hear but that almost made me cum all over her.
“OHH YES! OHH GOD! OHH ANDRE. ANDRE BABY. YOU FUCK ME SO GOOD. I LOVE YOUR COCK BABY PLEASE DON’T STOP. YOU CAN FUCK THIS PUSSY.. WHENEVER YOU WANT IT. OHHH FUCK. OH ANDRE.. YOU.. YOU FUCK ME BETTER THAN MY BOYFRIEND! OH FUCK! YEAH! YOU FUCK ME SO MUCH BETTER THAN HIM. SHOW HIM HOW GOOD YOU CAN FUCK ME BABY PLEASE!”
Andre gripped tightly onto Maya’s hip with his left hand and directed her head around so she could look back at him. He continued his rhythmic thrusting as he stared into her eyes. “Are you sure about that?”
Maya quivered on his dick as she looked at Andre, working up and down his massive shaft and coating it with the warm juices from inside her.
“Ohhhhh my fuckkk.. yes Andre.. you’re the best I’ve ever had. OH MY FUCK YOU'RE THE BEST FUCK I’VE EVER HAD!”
Andre responded by picking up his pace. His steady rhythm picking up to a strong hammering. SMACK. SMACK. SMACK. His hips against her ass over and over as he filled my little girlfriend. Her pussy almost breaking from his size. She lost her words and cried out for him, lost completely to the pleasure of the moment. He gripped her hips as he thrust into her, but Maya responded by slamming back again him, meeting him thrust for thrust and inviting him to pound into her, all while crying and screaming and continuing grab hold of my cock.
“FUCKKKK!! FUUUUCKKK!! FUUCKKKK!!!”
Maya looked like she was on the edge of cumming again when Andre stopped and pulled her away from me. Her back now against his chest, they knelt there together for a moment while she settled down onto his cock.
“Let your boyfriend see how good you take this dick.”
With that, Andre laid back onto the mattress and pulled Maya on top of him, never pulling his cock out of her. Intuitively, she spread her legs around his and put her hands back onto his chest to hold herself up in reverse cowgirl, giving me an incredible view of her pussy, which was currently stuffed to the base of his cock, and his massive swollen balls beneath it.
Maya looked at me and then looked down at his cock inside her, groaning with pleasure at what she saw. She began to rub her clit gently and gyrate her hips around on him.
“You like this baby?”
“Fuck yeah.”
“You like watching him push his fat dick into me?”
“Oh god you’re so fucking hot Maya.”
I stared into her pussy as Andre slid his cock in and out it. She was fully open for him, allowing him to plunge into her effortlessly. Maya continued staring down at his cock as he pierced her with it.
“Doesn’t his dick look so fucking good baby? I love watching him fuck my pussy.”
“Yes. It looks so good.”
“‘Mmmm fuck it’s so thick.” My girlfriend batted her eyelashes as she pulled her eyes off his dick and started directly into my eyes. Her eyes flashed and I saw scandalous look cross her face, like she’d just had the naughtiest thought. She was loving this.
“I’m giving him my pussy baby. It’s his now.”
“Fuck..”
“Ohhhhhhh my god, it’s his, baby. My pussy is his! Fuck”
My eyes could only widen as I stared back at her. I could see she meant ever single thing she said.
“His to fuck. His to cum in. His to fucking use whenever he wants. Ohhhh god I’m fucking sorry baby but my pussy is his! OHH FUCK THATS DEEP!”
Andre took charge, holding Maya up by her ass, and began to pound his giant cock up into her. Her arms gave out immediately and she collapsed back onto him, but he still held her ass up and continued to pound her. I watched while he used his massive dick to ruin her pussy for me. I couldn’t believe how much she was able to stretch for him, and how much she could take. He gave her everything, and her wet pussy creamed all over his cock, clearly enjoying every inch of it. I was in a trance watching them. But I was about to be pulled into something I was not prepared for at all.
“Ohhh fuck Andre. Andre baby. Can my boyfriend eat my pussy while you fuck me?”
My eyes widened at the implication. I wasn’t ready for that, at least I didn’t think I was. Did I even want that? Andre didn’t respond, just grunted as he continued fucking up into her, and Maya took that as a yes.
“Come here baby.” She gestured to me. I wanted to say no. I wanted to stop. But my words wouldn’t come, and despite feeling paralyzed, I felt my body moving forward, between their legs. Before I knew it, I was laying on my stomach with Maya’s pussy a few inches from my face, along with Andre’s cock and balls, which continued fucking upwards into her. I could smell both of them, her pussy and his musk. Trying not to touch him, I lowered my lips to my girlfriend’s clit and began to lick.
“OHHHH FUCK THAT’S SO HOT!”
My intention was to isolate my focus on her clit and minimize all contact with Andre. That turned out to be more difficult that I expected. As I began to lick my girlfriend and suck on her clit, I could feel her pussy reacting as he filled her. I could taste him on her, and she was doing a poor job of staying still as he fucked her with his giant cock. My tongue didn’t mean to brush against it, but it happened. My bottom lip dragged against it and his taste filled my mouth. But still I focused on my girlfriend, ignoring that fact that his balls had bumped against my chin multiple times. Maya didn’t help, grabbing my hair and pushing my head around. It almost felt like she was trying to push me lower. My mind went to the times I’d sucked on a dildo while watching her videos. But that was make believe. I’m not gay. I certainly wasn’t going to suck another man’s cock.
I lost all track of time. I could have been down there for one minute or 20. My mind was split between trying to focus all my attention on Maya and trying to avoid contact with Andre. Eventually, the stimulation became too much for Maya. Between my lips and his cock, she was overwhelmed. She gripped tightly on my hair and began to spasm on Andre’s cock as she came all over him for a second time.
“OOOOHHHHH FUCKKKKKKKKK!!”
Maya screamed out while she came, still shaking. I kept my lips tightly pressed against her clit, gently sucking. Then, the worst thing that could have happened, happened. Maya’s orgasm caused her to buck upwards and off of Andre. His cock, glistening and wet with her pussy, popped out of her and slid up over her pussy towards her belly button.. and it dragged against my face as it happened. I could feel the trail it left against my cheek, wet and hot. Letting go of Maya’s pussy, I looked at his cock now an inch from my face and up at my girlfriend. She was looking down at me, a slight smile on her face, and still holding me by the hair, she pressed my face down against his cock.
My first instinct was to pull my head back, but Maya kept a strong hold on me. I opened my mouth to say something, but his taste coated my lips at once and killed my words in their tracks. So I did the only thing I could do in that moment. I opened my mouth and dragged my tongue along the base of his cock, licking her pussy off it, and then sucked the head of his cock into my mouth.
“Ohhh good boy! Suck his big dick baby!”
My girlfriend spoke words of encouragement to me as she pushed my head down on Andre’s cock. My first thought was that this was so much warmer than a dildo. My second was that his cock was enormous. My respect for my girlfriend’s ability to suck dick tripled. How could she fit all this in her mouth? I barely had his head in my mouth and I felt ready to gag. Trying not to touch my teeth, I moaned and sucked on the spongey head of his dick. I could tase the pre-cum oozing out of him and coating my mouth. I felt his cock throb inside my lips. I had Andre’s cock in my mouth, and I moaned around it. I didn’t want this, but now that I had it, I wanted to be good at it. I wanted to be a good boy. I wanted to be a good slut. I was going to suck him good.
I’m not sure how long I knelt there, sucking Andre’s massive meat. Maya continued to moan and talk to me but I ignored her. My focus now was on him. My cock twitched every time Andre groaned in appreciation for what I was doing. His big cock was too much for my inexperienced mouth, but I gave him my best. I let my drool build up in my mouth, warm and wet for him, and let it drip down his shaft while I swallowed him. Every time I felt his cock pulse in my mouth I groaned with lust. I desperately wanted to feel him release.. to twitch and throb and fill my mouth with his cum. I massaged his balls while I forced my head down on him, gagging when he pressed against my throat. I thought about every woman I let suck my cock over the years, and I channeled them all as I worshipped him. I wasn’t doing this for him. I was doing it for myself.
After some time, I felt Maya begin to kiss along my ear and neck and realized she’d knelt down next to me. As she kissed along my jaw I realized what she wanted. With one final strong suck, I popped Andre’s cock out of my mouth and looked at her.
Maya was smiling from ear to ear. “You are so fucking SEXY!”
Andre’s cock was still resting against my lips and I gave it a little kiss before I answered her. “I’m just doing what you taught me.”
My girlfriend laughed and told me to shut up, then she leaned towards me, making as if she was trying to kiss me. Instead of pressing her lips against mine, she pressed them against his cock, on the opposite side of where I held my own. The next few minutes were a blur. Together, we kissed and licked our way up and down his cock, moaning for him and each other as as we swirled our tongues around on him, coating him with spit and getting his stink all over us.
Our lips finally met at the tip of Andre’s cock, and we made out hungrily, fencing with our tongues and dancing them around his swollen, spongey head. Our lips were coated with his pre-cum, and it tasted so intoxicating, I couldn’t wait for it to fill my mouth. We worked out way back down and Maya held his cock up with one hand as we began to suck on his balls together.
My girlfriend and I tenderly took care of Andre’s cock, thanking it for being the source of so much pleasure. I kept sucking his scrotum while Maya swallowed his cock again, staring up at him while she used her soft lips to serve him. I let her enjoy him for awhile before I gripped a handful of her hair and pulled her face off of him, and then plunged my mouth onto his cock. Swallowing as much as I could take, I sucked him as eagerly as I could manage, desperate to make him cum for me. My jaw was sore for 3 days from how aggressively I tried to milk him.
Before I could make Andre cum, Maya guided my head off his cock. She smiled down at me and sat up, leaning forward to give me a big kiss.
“You’re such a good boy, but my pussy needs this.”
Then she swung her leg around and faced Andre, sitting back down on his cock and giving me a view of her tight little butthole as it puckered in response to being filled again. I squeezed her ass and guided her up and down on him as she began to ride his cock. His girth and the way he stretched her pussy was incredible. I still can’t believe he fit all that inside her. Unable to resist, I lowered myself and stuck my tongue in her ass.
“OHH YES!”
I licked and tongue fucked my girlfriend’s cute little butthole while Andre fucked her. No longer afraid of the contact with him, I quickly felt my lips and tongue begin kissing and licking her juices off the hard shaft of his cock while he continued to use my girlfriend for his pleasure. I licked him over and over, from the base of his dick, never reaching his tip, because he never stopped to pull it fully out of her strong grip, and across her tightly stretched lips to plunge my tongue back into her ass, before licking my way back down to the base of his cock. Both of them moaning in pleasure as they enjoyed each other and my mouth, all while moaning and drooling myself at how good she tasted on him, and how good he tasted himself.
Andre’s cock smelled amazing. I’ve never smelled anything like it. It smelled a lot like my own, but had a slight difference to it that I don’t have the words to describe. And it was coated in my girlfriend's hot pussy. It wasn’t long before I was rubbing my face all over him. He popped out of Maya’s pussy and I sucked him back into my mouth for a few seconds before guiding him back into her, watching in fascination as her lips stretched around him.
I sucked his scrotum into my mouth, feeling its texture on my tongue as I stared at his cock burying into my girlfriend’s pussy, hoping for it to pop out so I could suck him again. But he didn’t. He couldn’t. She gripped him too tightly because she was getting too close to another orgasm, and as she succumbed to her building climax, I stopped sucking his balls and watched my precious girlfriend.. the woman I love.. bury her face against his chest and begin shaking uncontrollably as she was racked by one of the most powerful orgasms I’ve ever seen anyone have, sinking down fully onto his massive cock.
After what felt like minutes on end and she came back down to earth, practically a puddle on top of him, I watched as he began to gently thrust up into her, with a slower pace and a rhythm I immediately recognized, his already huge dick now looking bigger than ever. As if I was in a trance, I started gently kissing and softly breathing on his balls while his legs flexed next to me and his cock began swelling and twitching. I was still breathing on them while I watched the powerful pulsing of his cock and balls as he grunted and filled my girlfriend with his cum. I heard Maya tell him how warm his cum felt inside her as she moaned in satisfaction. I watched him slowly soften and shrink and eventually slip out of her. I stared into her now gaping pussy and watched a steady stream of his cum, watery from being mixed with her gushing wetness, drip out of her.
My only hesitation being to stare for a few more seconds, I moved Andre’s cock out of my way and lowered my face to Maya’s pussy, licking her clean and sucking his cum into my mouth while she moaned and giggled cutely because how overwhelming everything was in that moment. My mouth was full of his cum when I pulled back and realized I was still holding his softening cock, so sucked it into my mouth, gripping him with my lips and stretching him back to his full length. I could feel his warm cum dripping out of my lips and onto my chin as I sucked every last drop out of him, only stopping when he moaned in protest from overstimulation, his strong hand pulling my head off his cock by my hair. I pressed my lips against the puddle of cum I’d let leak out onto him and sucked it back into my mouth.
Maya got off Andre and laid next to him as I crawled over to her. Bringing my face back to her pussy, I spit my mouthful of Andre’s cum all over it, watching it mix with the cum that was still leaking from her. I rubbed it around on her clit and labia before using my lips to clean her again, literally sucking his cum from her dripping hole.
My mouth now full of his cum again, I kissed her and spit it all into her mouth. We kissed deeply that way, with his cum dripping out from between our lips and dancing tongues. He had cum so much and so deep inside her that there was still some leaking out of her pussy as I slipped my cock into her. My girlfriend, usually tight and needing time to adjust to my cock, swallowed my cock effortlessly. I’ve never felt her pussy so loose, completely stretched by his immense size. I buried into her fully and enjoyed the hot warmth and slickness of her cum coated pussy. I could have pounded her violently in that moment and I doubt she would have felt me at all. But I didn’t, I just soaked into his warm cum inside her hot and sloppy pussy, letting it ooze out and onto my balls.
Andre got dressed while Maya and I fucked, and neither of us heard him leave. We were too focused on each other, looking into each other’s cum covered faces. I came almost immediately, overwhelmed by how different her pussy felt. She moaned with pleasure as I added my own cum to Andre’s. We had sex three times before she tapped out, unable to take any more. She was only able to cum once for me, and it was weak compared to what Andre had done to her, but I didn’t mind. Maya fell asleep almost immediately after I came a third time, and even though she was a mess, covered in sweat and saliva and tears and dried cum and smudged makeup, she still looked absolutely beautiful. I sat in the armchair and stared at her. Laying on her stomach, her left leg bent and right straight. Her head turned to the left, with her long dark hair splayed out like a halo all around her. A single bed sheet pulled up around her shoulder, the corner tucked under her chin. It covered her back, but trailed off around her lower back, leaving her legs and ass completely exposed to me. There was a little puddle of cum next to her thigh that had been slowly dripping out of her and I looked at it, wondering how much of it was Andre’s. I let her rest as I sat back and considered everything that had happened.
I could still taste his cum as I started writing this. It was slightly salty, and I hate admitting that he tasted good, especially with her juices all mixed in. I could feel the gritty texture of it in my mouth and how it coated my throat when I swallowed it. I could still taste his sweat on my lips from kissing his balls and licking his shaft. He was clean shaven, but I could still feel the tickle of the few stray hairs on balls as they brushed against my lips. I could still feel the spongey head of his cock in my mouth as I desperately sucked him.
I made myself cum again thinking of everything that happened. How good Maya looked. How hot it all was. How good he tasted. Smelling and tasting them all over me, I came. After cleaning myself up, I looked over at my sleeping girlfriend, and I asked myself the question that started this story.. how did I become this person? I pulled out my laptop, and started writing.
The next morning, Maya and I slept in til 10. We were just starting to wake up, knowing checkout was fast approaching, when Maya's phone vibrated. Andre had texted.
"Hey, just wanted to say last night was great. You were amazing. Better than amazing. I feel like it was for you too. I know you're leaving today but I wanted to let you know when I left last night, I was a little too drunk to drive home. The hotel had rooms available, so I booked one last night and thought it might be a good get it for tonight as well. No pressure, but I’d love it if you extended your trip an extra day. We could grab brunch? Or you could just come to my room…"
Maya and I read the text together, our eyebrows raised. She blushed and took the phone from me, silent while she re-read his message, studying the words carefully. As she studied Andre's texts, I studied her.. trying to get a read on what she was thinking. I knew she was sore and worn out from the night before. Carefully, and thoughtfully, she slowly typed a message back and hit send.
I knew her answer before I read her message. She looked up at me, biting her bottom lip, with pure lust in her eyes, and she held her phone out to show me her response: “What's your room #?”
Maya wasn't asking permission. She was taking what she wanted. There was nothing I could do to stand in her way, and honesty, I didn't even want to stand in her way.
She gave me her best puppy dog look. "Do you think, maybe, you could go get us all breakfast, so I can have some alone time with him?" As if to sell her proposal, she picked up her camera and gave it a little shake. “You can obviously come later on.”
What could I say to that?
I walked her to Andre’s room, and when he opened the door, he pulled my girlfriend into a deep kiss, groping her ass while she stood on her tiptoes in front of him. She quietly moaned against his lips and then walked past him into their room without another look back at me.
Andre smiled at me, and told me what he wanted to eat. Then he handed me his room key. “For when you get back. I might be too deep inside your girl to answer the door.”
So I went and got us breakfast. I took a shower. I drank some coffee. I took my sweet time. And like Maya said, I did come later on. When I quietly slipped into Andre’s room and saw what he was doing to my girlfriend, I came everywhere.
That’s my story. If you’ve made it this far, thanks for sticking with it. I hope you enjoyed it. It’s been a few weeks since our night with Andre. I originally intended to just journal my feelings and go to bed, but as I wrote more and more, I realized just how much to my story there was, and how I needed to tell it.
I still don’t know how to feel about what happened. I’m confused about how much I enjoyed sucking his cock, and how submissive I became. The things that happened that night and the morning after. I still don’t consider myself bi. Maya and I talked about it and tried to watch some bi-porn together, and it didn’t do anything for me. I guess I’m just a giver, and with his cock in front of me, another part of my mind took over.
Reflecting on everything that’s happened has been an insane experience. I’ve re-written parts of this story many times in the last few weeks, as certain memories I’d suppressed came flooding back to me. I think I’ve told my tale in full, though I’m sure I’ll remember five more things I should have added as soon as I post all this.
I’d love to know your thoughts on my experiences. Do you see yourself in me, or in any of the people I’ve written about? Are you disgusted by me? Are you envious of me? Do you have any questions for me? Do you have advice for me, or want advice from me? I’m open to anything.
Now that I’ve told my tale, I think I can answer my own question.
From the beginning, I fetishized myself because of having a big dick. That self-fetishization set the table for everything that would follow, but it really all started with Nicole. Infidelity is a slippery slope. I had no idea what I was getting into at the time, but the way her cheating inflated my ego and set me down a dangerous road.
Daisy was the next step, and laid the foundation for my thoughts about being cheated on. The possibility of her infidelity combined with my experience as the other man created an unavoidable problem. Without Nicole, Daisy’s breakup would have been painful, but because of Nicole, it opened the door to a new fetish.
My only true regret is my own infidelity during the time I dated Samira. I see the phrase “once a cheater, always a cheater” fairly often on reddit, and I’m sure it holds true for some, but it never held for me. I hated how gross I felt each time I cheated on her, and though I didn’t do anything to control my behavior, and she never found out about my cheating, the guilt ate at me. I haven’t cheated since that time period in my life, and I can't imagine I ever will again.
My pursuit of taken women at that time also added to trust issues that had begun building inside me. I never outwardly displayed these issues, and I was always disgusted by other guys who acted jealous or controlling of their women, but seeing first-hand the ease with which some women were willing to cheat on their partners, and the endless excuses they always had to justify their behavior, really affected me. Every girl I’d been with had always told I was the best they’d ever had, but I began to doubt that. They couldn’t all have been honest, and if one of them could lie, why couldn’t all of them?
Vanessa was an obvious major turning point in what my life would become. The way she cheated, and the words she wrote about it afterwards, escalated everything for me. I saw her cheat on me in detail through her words, and I tasted it on her pussy. After her, it was only a matter of time.
My relationship with Maya was one perfect situation after another that led me to where I am. Initially, my unwillingness to see her as anything more than a hookup made me accept her having sex with other men. When she came back into my life, her first hookups with Steven built onto my existing fetish. Then the videos. Then the actual sex with Steven and my growing obsession with his dick. After everything I’d been through, you would think she would be the worst thing for me, but it was the opposite affect. Maya’s honesty was the gateway to everything. She didn’t concern herself with convincing me I was the best or the biggest. She told it like it was. I knew there was better than me out there. That honesty made me believe her when she did confess her feelings for me, and I trusted her.
Fetishizing Steven and Andre’s cocks came from a place of envy. I wanted to be them so badly, to have what they had. It sounds crazy, being someone who is already in the 98th or 99th percentile of penis size, being envious of other men, but it’s true. As I once told Daisy, there’s always a bigger dick. My urges to suck on them, I think, come from a place of wanting to take power back. If I couldn’t be them, I wanted to make them cum. I know it sounds crazy, and I’m still coming to grips with it myself, but it’s all I have to go on right now.
So that’s my story. That’s how a good looking, dominant man who starts adulthood pursuing and successfully stealing taken women can morally deteriorate over the years into a submissive, cum licking, cock sucking cuckold. If you knew me in person, you’d likely never suspect it. I’m a normal guy. I could be your neighbor, your brother, your best friend. I’m the guy you see walking his dog down your street, at the gym, out at dinner with his girlfriend, your funny colleague at work. I could be you, if you aren’t careful. Maybe you’re a lot like I was once. Maybe you’re obsessed with a taken girl at your work, and how she looks at you in ways you both know she shouldn’t. Maybe you’re already fucking her. Once that genie is out of the bottle, you never know what road it’ll lead you down. So be careful what you wish for.. because you just might get it.