I think I’m being cuckolded [Cuckold Perspective]

I think I'm being Cuckolded?

I have a massive crush on my best friend, who is trans, and he has recently started seeing this girl. I've been over to her house a few times with my friend. The first time I stayed I heard them fucking through the wall and wow it turned me on! I had my ear against the wall fir literally hours and covered her wall in my cum with multiple loads. I had to clean it and be quiet going to sleep.

Then later I was texting this girl, as a friend, and she understand how much I wanna fuck my best friend. She asks if I've heard them and I say no, and she tells me it's unfortunate that I didn't and maybe next time I would. That was my first clue that she wants to make me hear it. She tells me how they fuck each other, and how big their toys are too!

Then I stayed over again and they kept going into the bedroom to fuck… Loudly! Then in the middle of the night they just go at it like feral animals! The ved is banging on the wall, they're moaning loud, cumming louder, and saying stuff like "you like my big toy dont you" "Don't cum until I tell you" it went on for literally hours and I had managed to sneak to the door and listen with my ear against it. I cum so much for those hours, and absolutely loved hearing my best friend moaning "I'm gonna cuuuu- gonna… I'm gonna cum!" And his moans as he did! The next morning, I'm awake and go to the living room and she joins me, asking if I enjoyed what I heard and I admitted I did. She gave me a big smile and started kissing me before having me eat her out while he was still asleep.

But I genuinely don't know if she is enjoying being heard, or if she is enjoying cuckolding me!