Soothing me after my lover was rough with me [ex-bf]

About 2 years ago, I broke up with my then-bf for incompatibility reasons, at least that was what I felt at the time. I never knew why exactly and I blamed it on other stuff, but in light of exploring my dominant side, it clicked.

He is cute, thoughtful. and generous. He put me first, and was like a little puppy constantly trying to make me happy. I loved it, but something was missing, he radiated with devoted submission, but would always try to act macho and manly. This pretense all fell apart every time we would have sex. His cock was pitiful, he was uncoordinated, and I never felt like I was "taken" when his cock was in me. Of course I never told him this.

We reconnected this past new years, and that night ended up with him between my legs licking me for hours. It was different, it felt right. He wasn't "trying" to take me, he took care of me, his licks were gentle and slow as if he was trying to be sensual and romantic, it felt like he was made for it. My sadistic tendencies were going wild though, I wish I had a crop to direct him, I needed it ROUGH that night. He felt pathetic as if he was begging be to get back together with him with his tongue. And sure enough, he tried to open up the idea of us getting back together. I just patted him on the head for a job well done, and went home for the night hornier than I was before.

After that night we started texting again, and I could tell that he wanted to bring up us getting back together again but was hesitant after my reaction. He's still the cute caring and respectful puppy he was before. He still puts me first, and this time I don't have to put up with trying to make the relationship work, I just make sure to respond to his texts at night so he sleeps thinking of me, and that's all it takes. I've made it clear that im currently dating around and hooking up, and I can see the effect it has on him, he tries harder. Sometimes when my lovers are railing me into the night, my phone vibrates and I know that it's him texting, and it turns me on so much. I respond to those right after my lover leaves, and often I remind him of new years and how good he is at giving oral and he's right back between my legs, being a total gentleman to my aching pussy that had been roughed up and railed. When I ask him to leave after, I hear the disappointment in his voice, but he always respects my boundaries.