She left me – (Final post)

This will be my last post here.Basically last week my girlfriend of nearly six years told me she thinks we should stop seeing each other. She said she doesn’t think our relationship is sustainable and that she no longer sees a future with me. I begged her to stay, I told her I’d give her anything she wants and that she’s my whole world. She told me she doesn’t want someone who’ll give her anything she wants. She wants someone who would never share her. I told her we can go back to how things were but she said her feelings for me have changed.I’ve been really down the past week and am somehow still turned on and jerking off at the thought of her and Ben fucking, or her now single, hooking up with new guys. I’ve also basically lost my entire friend group since Ben and my girlfriend are core members.The other night I got so horny thinking about her – I messaged her asking for a pic or video to help. She said no. I begged her to let me join them, she didn’t have to get back together with me, just let me taste her and eat her ass while she pleases him. After that she blocked me and it’s the last time we’ve spoke.I’ve been a mess. I called in sick from work and have just been playing video games and jerking off to old vids of him pounding her all week. I’m writing this post for some closure. I don’t think I’ll be active on this account anymore, or sharing a partner in the future.