Going back to her & learning my place

After being unknowingly cucked by a fwb (for those that asked if I was okay, I am, thank you x)

I went down a rabbit hole. Realising that my submissive nature isn't what most women want all the time.
I also realised that I'm not the best in bed stamina wise & that my willy is well just that, it's a willy, not a dick or a cock but a peepee.
Concluding that maybe being a cuck is what was meant to be.

I know I shouldn't have but I went back to my fwb & we resumed our previous relationship.
She was surprised I asked her out but we started dating again, to my delight.
I'd fallen hard for her before & I guess I'll always love her & I don't think I'd be able to show my vulnerable submissive side to anyone else.

During sex I suffered from performance anxiety & couldn't get fully hard or went limp during sex.
She was surprisingly understanding through out many attempts at sex.

One night I was naked in bed & my fully clothed fwb pulled the covers off & started playing with me as we talked putting her bare feet by my face & stroking my willy.

Eventually I asked her about other guys she'd been with & she started talking about them.
How some had huge cocks…
How she loved sucking on them…
How she loved getting fucked by them…
How they covered her in cum & filled her up…

My own cock started getting harder as she stroked me. Placing her toes on my lips.
She smiled & spoke in a playful way as she continued her stories. Then without warning I prematurely cum. A little load compared to her other partner's I'm sure. She let out a giggle & wiped her hand on me before putting on her shoes saying she'd see me next week as she had some dates lined up for the weekend…