my girlfriend cheats on me and i love it

so around may or june i discovered that my girlfriend had been cheating on me for about a couple months at that point. i went through her phone while she was showering because i noticed the day before she got an instagram notification on her spam account from an account ive never seen before. I went to check only to discover that she was infact cheating on me. The first 2 most recent messages came from a black man and a latino who i had never seen but i know live atleast in the same city as us. She had responded to the black man saying that she would let him know when the next time they could meet was after he had told her that he missed her and the most recent text with the latino guy was from a week prior saying he had a good time. I was mad at that point so i immediately went to her messages only to discover a nameless contact that she had been texting with about 2 month prior setting up a meet and a couple of messages after they met. I then searched her x account but found nothing then to my surprise i saw she had reddit downloaded. This was surprising because she always told me she didnt know what reddit was whenever i told her about something i saw on here. I on the app and go to her messages to find that she had tried setting up some meets with guys she found on a local meetup subreddit, she had exchanged pictures and did hook up with 3 guys from here. My dick size is 6.5 so its not too bad but those guys had 8-10 inches on them from what i can see. I was mad but i was also kinda turned on whenever i thought about her sleeping with a bigger dick. I didnt know what to do so i just put the phone back and let it be. A week later i grew helpless and had to make sure she was cheating so i told her that i made plans to go out with friends to some batting cages and then out to eat after, she knew id be gone for a few hours. She showered before i left so i knew forsure she was planning something so i set up old iphone 11s we had in the living room and in the bedroom recording the whole thing while i was gone. I left at around 7:15 and just drove around the neighborhood to a sot that allowed me to see the front door from the passenger seat. I wouldn’t say i was surprised when no less than 15 minutes later a black man shows up to my front door and give my girlfriend a kiss before walking in. She texts about a minute after he walked in asking if i had made it safely to my friends house, i say yes and all she does is react to the message with a thumbs up. The next hour was excruciating as all i could do was sit there and imagine what was going on. He left at around 8:40 and i ended up texting her at 9 that i would be home in 15 minutes. 15 minutes later i get home and she looks like she had just showered again. I dont question because how could i, she then walks to the room and tells me that shes going to lay down because she was tired. I also go to the room to get the iphone and my earbuds then back to living room for the other phone. I knew that the thought of her cheating on me turned me on but watching those videos and what they did to each other on my couch and on my bed solidified me as a cuck. I repeated that situation maybe 6 times for the next 3 months, she invited the black man 3 more times, the latino twice and some random i hadnt seen once. It was hot, i masturbate to those videos often, the way she gets on her knees for those men makes me hard. A couple weeks ago i repeated it but i made a slight change to the routine. I left before she could get out of the shower, except i didnt leave, i just hid in a closet where the washing machine and dryer are. My car was parked kinda far and the phones were still recording but this time i was inside with them. She invited the black man that time and the sounds made me so hard. When they moved to the bedroom i could hardly hear them so i made the decision to leave through the back door and wait til he left. Its been about 3 weeks and i want more, i want to be in the room with them. any suggestions?