Got cucked once, wanna get cucked again

Me and my wife have been together for some time, and we’re pretty open with each other. We’ve drilled into each other’s sexual history, and are pretty comfortable hearing a lot of things, like if she finds someone attractive, or if we have dirty dreams.

I’ve had a cuck fetish for a while. Well, it morphed into one. At first, it was just wanting a threesome, then hotwife, and now I think I’d be pretty okay being a cuck.

Earlier in our relationship, before we made it official, I got her to fuck one of her coworkers, and it turned me on so much, but the whole thing ended up fizzling out. I still think about it from time to time, since she would be sneaking out to see him while I was at work. She would tell me how amazing he is with his mouth, and that his cock would be perfect if he added a few inches.

But like I said, that didn’t end up going anywhere, and we soldiered on. She ended up discovering my cuck fetish when she saw my masturbating to wife cheating porn, and then discovered my porn stash.

Anyways, ever since finding out, she likes to make little “jokes” about how she should go find her a side piece, even bringing up her old coworker, or how she wants a bigger cock to satisfy her. She even told me she had a wet dream of her past fling where she got knocked up after messing around with him. I was so turned on in the moment I told her I’d raise the baby like it was my own, but I wouldn’t be mad at her for messing around with him, hoping she’d get the hint and do it for real.

But I don’t think she’s serious about it, because if I bring it up during sex, she gets a little uncomfortable, but she also goes along with it too. Like, she’ll reverse cowgirl me and suck my toes as if she’s sucking another cock, and that sends me to the moon.

Anyways, just came here to vent and journal. All in all, I’m pretty sure I want to be a cuck, even though I know it’s different from porn to reality, but I wanna see her getting plowed. I’ve even secretly found old videos of her sucking off and fucking her exes, even some of her coworker, and jerking off to it.