GF cheats then dumps me, then few years later, taunts me about it and it’s the hottest thing I’ve experienced.[True Story]

WARNING – discussion of other kinks present. (Weight gain, downgrade, role reversal, prejac, sph)

As the title says. I(M, 26) broke up with my then girlfriend more than 2 years ago, when she told me she was going out with friends for the night and messaged me the next morning that she slept with her ex, and that we should break up. Back then I didn't have the cuckolding kink, and because we'd fought a few days ago over something stupid so we were particularly mad at each other then, so I angrily accepted it and broke up with her. I used to think that it was a mutual breakup, but now thinking back to it, I guess it's more like I got dumped.

Anyways, after she moved out, she had some pretty wild things to say to me through text, especially things that attacked my masculinity like telling me how "every time I assured you that your penis was average, I was only saying it to make you feel better about your one inch dick", or how "that was the best sex she had in years after being with me for so long", and called me a loser who'll never be anything. I was never particularly sensitive to those topics back then so I just brushed them off, said some shitty things myself, and told her to have a nice life. Then we blocked each other, and didn't talk to each other for a while.

During that time I found myself becoming obsessed with this kink and myriad of other "weird shit(I used to be pretty vanilla)" like Cuckolding, SPH, degradation or downgrade kink, premature ejaculation, weight gain kink, etc after coming across them online. According to some people online cuck fetish and other fetishes can develop as a result of trauma, so maybe thats what triggered the whole thing. Didn't help that I started binge eating as a stress reliever after that and gained a ton of weight since then, failed grad school and dropped out due to unrelated reasons, and went through a bunch of other personal issues that I won't elaborate on here. Honestly I don't even know what happened first, lol. The "downgrade" or the kinks.

A few months afterward, we chatted briefly on the phone, and in a moment of stupid horniness, I shared that I was starting to get interested in cuckolding and she made fun of me on the call for a bit-but we stopped talking to each other entirely pretty soon after that.

Anyways, skip to just a week or so ago, a little more than two years after the breakup, I get a message from her as she'd made a new account. Sends me pictures of her with her boyfriend. The same one she cheated on me for before dumping me. And in the last few years she'd changed a LOT, becoming slimmer, healthier, and basically a lot more attractive. I could immediately tell that she was doing much better than she used to when we were dating. When she was with me she was the fat one between us, so that was the first thing that caught me off guard. I had to double check to make sure it wasn't someone else, but it was her.

And in the message she's telling me how much better her life was after she left me, how I was the one holding her back the whole time, how she graduated grad school and was pursuing a real career in (insert prestigious occupation here, don't want to be too specific due to the risk of identification) while I was just stuck in a dead end job and not moving on. Apparently she remembered me after going through her old photos, looked me up on Linkedin and realized that I hadn't updated it at all since then after erasing the part about attending grad school. The message ended with her telling me that I was wrong, that she just wanted to tell me that as her final closure, and told me good luck and have a good life.

At this point everything she said was true, and as much as I hated to admit it, it was the hottest damn thing I ever read. The message wasn't even vaguely sexual, she was just telling me about what she's been up to. I was embarrassed and horny as fuck. The picture she sent me had her in clothes that weren't even that revealing and that sent me over the edge almost immediately. I'd gotten into so many weird kinks ever since we broke up, and this was pushing all of my buttons almost like she had access to all of my "side accounts", and with the reality of what she told me in the message hitting me all at once, about how much I'd fallen from a star student to a fat slob who goes to his 9-to-5 every day, comes home, binge eat cheap fast food, jerks off to weird hypno, cuckolding, sph, weight gain encouragement porn and play video games all night while she's actually getting somewhere in her life. I really wanted to message her back, to get her to talk down to me again and tell me how well she was doing compared to me, but didn't because that would've been stupid. But I got real close to messaging back, and the realization of how pathetic that was almost made me cum without even touching. It was the hottest, most embarrassing experience I've ever had and I wanted to share it somewhere.

(I spoilered the last bit because I'm ashamed to admit it. Like fuck, few days ago I went back to read her old breakup messages and jerked off to them, got punched by that post nut clarity, then jerked off to that post nut clarity the next day.