My ex gfs prior fuck buddy had videos of them [cuckold]

My ex had videos of them fucking. She told me. She told me he filmed her taking his dick. Giving him head. Face fucking her. Cumming all over her back and ass as she was bent over. And I asked her numerous times
“Just text him” “get the videos, please”
She said “no, he will know”
I just wish she would’ve. I still stroke my cock thinking about him fucking her. I want to see the videos so badly. I know he made her cum so much. I know she enjoyed it. She said “I loved how much cum he would put on me” ugh fuck. Thinking about it makes me so hard. I want to see his cock so bad to see what she loved about it. I loved hearing her tell me “it was just different” “he fucked me so slow” “he made me cum so hard” “he would cum so much” “he’d tell me this is why I fuck him, as I was cumming” “he’d cum so much” “I fell in love with cum because of him” “he came all over my back” “I loved it when he’d cum on my stomach, put his cock in it, and then put his cock back inside of me” ???????? I want to see it