My (30m) ex wife’s (31f) affair [cuckold’s perspective]

This affair ended up splitting us up.

We were married 11 years. We had kids, I worked a lot and so did she. I was always in charge. We’re a catholic, traditional family.

We had sex pretty regularly. We’re both attractive and fit. 30s, tattoos, I have a bodybuilding body type, tattoos, beard, she’s petite, blonde, nice body.

I started to hear from friends she’d take her ring off when she went out. Flirt a lot, maybe give her number out I was once told. I never addressed it.

I was a really possessive partner. The sex slowed to a stop over a month or two and I knew something was up. I dug and found her in an affair with a coworker.

When I confronted her she admitted to it and we tried to get past it. She kept secretly going back to him. Finally I offered for her to date and sleep with him while also being with me.

That lasted about a month. One morning after she spent the night in bed she came into bed with me and she still had some of his cum in her and I went to go down on her and I could taste it.

I threw up, and that was the end of us.

But now For some reason All I want is to be her cuck. I’m in a relationship with a new woman 10 times as hot as her, petite brunette, huge boobs, insane body and libido. But I have the kink now. My ex fucked my psychology and all I want is to eat her lovers cum out of her. I jerk off to that though every day. How disrespectful she was to me. It’s so hot to think I was so unimportant to her. I provided for her, gave her all my money, all my time and love and loyalty, and she was getting fucked down by strangers all the time.

I want that back