I [M] asked my gf [F] to compare sex with me to her friend’s ex [M]. I wanted to see why she liked fucking him so much [cuckolds perspective][true]

After the second night my gf Kayla's friend's ex Richard slept over, I realized that this was likely not going to end. It's always strange when a fantasy becomes a reality and its especially satisfying when you realize that the fantasy is as incredible as you had imagined. And even though the whole thing still makes me nervous, it is so hot when Kayla and Richard just choose to prioritize their lust for each other over all else.

The night before, I had nerves about the whole thing. I remembered thinking that I didn't need to experience this again but seeing it.. it almost felt like an addiction? Like I want to just experience it again and watch, listen or walk into a moment of pure sex and fucking between them. I've read a lot about how to make this work and deep down, I know I've done my fair share of "manipulating" things to make this a reality and realized that I can't keep manipulating things.

So after some very brief reflection, I decided to have a frank conversation with Kayla. I told her I wanted brutal honesty which made her nervous. The conversation started slow, with short answers, me asking if she'd like to do this again and her saying she wasn't sure. It took some time but I admitted to her in my best abilities why I found this hot and why I would like for her to continue if she wanted.

I told her that seeing her be free made me feel happy and that seeing her get what she wants is what I want. I explained the jealousy (and the nerves) I felt was part of what made this enjoyable for me and I was so turned on when she just left with him without asking. Almost like she didn't need my permission and just did what she so badly wanted.

She started to open up more and said (not the exact wording): "I don't like Richard the way I like you. I love you and I love what we have. Richard just says things that makes me lose my mind and if you ever want me to stop, I will".

I asked her "would you leave me for him?" and she said "no" and explained how she doesn't like him in that way. He doesn't have the same interests and doesn't feel like home for her, which was an incredible relief for me. But that made me wonder what Richard did have that made her want him, so I asked bluntly what does he do differently that I don't.

There was some quietness and nerves and clearly she was trying to find her words but with a little bit of comfort, she started to admit it all. Richard is sexual and he isn't afraid to demand for what he wants. She loves the dirty talk and the idea of being submissive. The details she heard from her friend Jane (Jane used to date Richard) about him being big and being talented were all true and what shocked me the most was how she admitted that she felt like a sexual being when with him. Now.. I have to admit, it felt like a bit of a gut punch to realize that I didn't make her feel that way and how I wasn't able to provide but she kept saying that because there's more intimacy between us, it never felt the same. Ours is making love, with Richard, it is fucking.

I knew that my reaction to all of what she said would dictate whether she'd continue or not so I stayed strong and told her what she needed to hear and it inevitably led to us making love. It wasn't the same but I felt she was feeling some guilt and wanted me to feel good. I mean.. sex with her is always amazing but knowing she was fucked by Richard the same morning weirdly gave it a whole other element. And knowing she liked feeling sexual, I felt myself attempting to be more like him which she enjoyed.

In terms of what happened over the following couple of weeks, Richard has come by a few times and the awkwardness between us three has since been gone. We all know why he's here and Kayla has started to dress slutty when he arrives. I've watched them, I've let them have the place to themselves while I've gone to take a walk and humiliatingly I've gone to pick up dinner while they've fucked, have us all eat and then watch them go back to fucking. And honestly, I love it and I wouldn't trade her or this experience for anything.