Admitted to my (45m) gf (40f) I wanted to be her cuck as she broke up with me [cuckold’s perspective]

Exgf and I were together for over three years. She has an athletic body. I know this because I've trained her for years. Her ass is that of a twenty five year old beach volleyball player. She would never wear those shorts, but she could pull them off. She keeps her pussy clean to the point of sparkling. This is one of the many reasons we get along. She has shoulder length brown hair, with blonde highlights. She is very polite, direct, harsh at times and can be naturally sexually dominant which I love.

The break up was very nasty. She was picking fights, blaming me and causing chaos. One evening near the end, she went out for a "work event." She never had a work event in the past. While slipping her shoes on she looked back and said "dont wait up." Later that night I woke up with her crawling into bed. Horny, I started pressing my cock against her ass. She reached down, grabbing my balls hard. I kept grinding. She started to pull and squeeze my balls hard. I moaned and she giggled slyly. This went on until she was jerking my balls off, full on, while I dry humped her thigh and the air. After cumming, she wiped her cum covered arm off on my side as if it was disgusting, then scooped up the cum from her leg, wiping off on me as well. She started laughing outloud and I could feel the bed shaking a little from it.

A couple days later I find her text msgs Shes cheating with atleast two other men. Then I find out her sister is setting her up with a mutual friend as well. I confront her about it but she denies it even though it is obvious.

She leaves for a few days and breaks up with me over text. I tell her to do it in person. She says ok Ill be back Thursday. She comes in with her hair done up from the salon. Walks in and says its over. I asked if she just came into town to get her hair done for someone else. She says yes, laughs and walks out.

Idk why but I was so horny. I started jerking off with her panties and texting her. Told her I knew, but it was ok. Begged her to let me eat her pussy one last time. She said no thx. I said Id eat her pussy whenever she wanted no strings attached, I wouldnt even jerk off. She responded haha. We had talked about how before I met her I would cut a hole in a watermelon and fuck it, I offered to do it for her, told her she can even tell her sister about it, but she wouldnt have it.

The next time she came home I was in bed with a pair of her panties next to me. She stood there smirking, looking at them and me. I wanted her to cuck me so bad. I wouldve found men for her. She couldve locked me up in chastity if she wanted too. But she wanted to cheat without me knowing. Thats what really got her off for those three years.