I let another guy fuck me while my bf watched and i can’t stop thinking about it [GF’s perspective]

It still feels weird to admit this, but it happened and I can’t stop replaying it in my head. My boyfriend and I had been talking about fantasies for a while, just random late-night conversations. He once mentioned how hot it would be if he could see me with someone else. I laughed it off at first, but deep down the thought stuck with me.

One night it actually happened. We were hanging out with one of his friends, someone we both trusted. The drinks loosened things up and my boyfriend brought it up again, kind of half-joking but not really. I thought he’d never push it further, but then he looked at me and asked if I’d actually do it. The way he said it made me realize he really wanted this.

It all moved faster than I expected. The three of us ended up in the bedroom. My boyfriend sat in the chair in the corner, just watching, and his friend was right in front of me. I was nervous as hell at first, but when he pulled me closer and started kissing me, all that tension snapped. My body gave in before my brain caught up.

The moment he pushed into me, I froze for a second. Not because I didn’t want it, but because I was fully aware my boyfriend was sitting there watching everything. Instead of feeling wrong, it lit something in me I didn’t know I had. The mix of being used by another guy and knowing my boyfriend was right there made me drip.

I remember looking over at him while I was being fucked, expecting him to be upset, but he just sat back with this intense look on his face. That only made it hotter. I let myself go completely. His friend had me pinned, thrusting harder, and I was moaning louder than I thought I would. It felt like I was someone else for that moment, like a side of me I’d never let out was finally free.

Since then, I can’t stop thinking about it. The way my boyfriend watched, the way another guy stretched me while he sat there taking it all in. It should make me feel guilty, but honestly, I just want it again.