Qos tattoo update the first part [female perspective]

First let me clear up the tattoo, I know what the qos tattoo means however I please understand that hubby is and will always be the only white guy for me. Secondly the only reason I am unsure of continuing this is my own self control, one I hate condoms and two I have a hard time telling a strong man no when we are in the heat of the moment. I am scared of pregnancy because I’m not on bc and the other obvious stds.

With that being said I sat hubby down to tell him and he was more than understanding, however he was upset with me for allowing them to cum inside of me. I told him I understand but it is pretty much impossible for me to say no to these beautiful black men! I went on to tell him we can be a safe as possible even telling him that he should use a condom to protect himself and Incase I get pregnant we will know he isn’t the father. This will help any decisions be made if necessary. I told him we can continue and I will even allow him to have input on who, and he I’ll let him watch or even film it for him. I told him if we do this I will go all in and make it his daily life. Or we can leave this life in the past and move on with just me and him. With a brief pause he started nodding his head and saying yes.

Now we are searching for someone to hopefully play with this weekend. Going to keep you posted!