he watched, and i liked it more than i should’ve [gf perspective]

okay so this wasn’t planned at all. we were drinking, i was tipsy, and his friend was over. this guy he’s known since college, tall, smug, kinda hot in a messy way. we were all laughing, music playing, i was wearing these tiny ass shorts that ride up when i sit. didn’t even realize how obvious i was being until later. my man had made little jokes before about wanting to “see me with someone else,” but i always brushed it off like yeah yeah sure. didn’t seem real. that night though? he leaned over and said, quiet in my ear, “if you want him, you can have him. i’ll just sit back and watch.” and i froze. like legit didn’t know if he meant it. but then he sat down on the couch, legs spread, drink in hand, just watching. i didn’t even look back at him once it started. i could feel his eyes though, like heat crawling up my spine. his friend pulled me into his lap and i just let it happen. full body goosebumps. my hands were shaking but i liked it. too much. after, my boyfriend didn’t say a word. just kissed me slow and deep like he was the one who just got off. and i haven’t stopped thinking about doing it again.