One year of real life cucking [cucks perspective] [part 1]

My [m45] wife [f45] and I have been in the lifestyle a little over a year now, it’s a bit different to a lot of what I see online so thought I’d share it genuine experience for others who are interested! We’ve been together since our early 20’s, and have 2kids. We had a great sex life when we were younger, and looking back now there were many experiences which suggested we would end up in this world eventually. If people are interested I’ll maybe share some of those later, but for now I’ll just say she’s always been dominant with me in the bedroom.

But, I think like many couples, our sex life dropped off a cliff when the kids came along. Around 18 months ago it had dropped off to close to nothing, but I wanted to do something about that. The opportunity came when my wife had been at the gym – she’d recently taken up CrossFit style training and was complaining how sore and tired her legs were. I offered her a leg massage, which she accepted. I did my best job of soothing her legs before moving to her ass, and finally sliding a hand under her body and rubbing her clit until she came. I made no effort to hide my bulging erection, but she told me she had a work call to make, but I could finish myself off if I wanted. She headed downstairs and I had a wank on the bed alone! This became our new sex life, I’d pleasure her then she’d leave me to sort myself out. I’d offer her a massage, she’d say that she didn’t want my precum getting on her so I had to promise to keep my boxers on – this was a weird kind of chastity/denial that I really enjoyed. The next thing was, she asked me to start talking dirty to her whilst I massaged her. It was a bit awkward but she asked me to tell her what I thought about when I masturbated. So initially this was about her body, and what I fantasised doing with it. But things took a turn one day when I’d seen her with her PT from the gym. He is young, and fit and strong, and he was helping her form with lifting weights. Later that day, whilst I rubbed her clit and talked dirty I started to mention that the way he’d held her had turned me on. This really seemed to get her going, so I leaned into it, saying how I imagined her getting wet as he held her waist. This took us to December ’24. The two of us had a weekend away booked to do some Xmas shopping. We had hotel booked, and planned some shopping, a few drinks, then dinner in the evening. After shopping we went for a few drinks in a bar, there was a university rugby team in there and one of them had a little flirt with my wife when she got some drinks. We headed back to the room, and I offered her a ‘massage’, and this time the dirty talk was around the rugby lad, and how I fantasised about him fucking my wife deep and hard. She came so hard on my hand, but then she told me to gently stroke myself, but no cumming. I laid back and did as she said, whilst she told me she had an idea… She wanted to see if she still had it, and had the idea of creating a tinder profile and seeing if she got any interest – just to see if people thought she was hot for a bit of fun, not to act on it. I agreed, what a great idea, and I was so horny. She told me no cumming until later, and she would make it special for me – I agreed. So we set about making her a tinder profile! Rest coming in part 2….