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Long story incoming:
I (31M) started dating a girl 2 years ago, let’s call her Maria (28F). The first months into our relationship, things were going great and we discussed making it official at some point, but to keep it short, my job schedule changed drastically and I had (still have to) travel overseas for around three months at a time.
After coming back from the first trip, I decided to cut ties with her, as I’ve never wanted a long distance relationship, but we occasionally met to have sex and spend a couple days together, as we have always gotten along pretty well and sex is amazing, but nothing too serious.
Until last year, when we started dating much more frequently: weekly meetups, full weekends together, she met my family, we traveled together, etc.
I had to leave again, this time for three months, but we rarely discussed the seriousness and exclusivity of the relationship.
When I came back, something interesting and intense happened: she confessed me that she had sex with someone else, and the way it happened has my mind racing even to this day:
For context: this girl is my sister’s best friend, and my sister is a pretty conservative, low-key girl, and my family knows Maria is like this as well. During all the time I’ve met her, she has always said that she exercises extreme sexual discipline, does not like hookups, and is overall okay with not having sex for long periods of time when she is single. She had always been consistent with this, and it showed.
Now, the story:
We were talking about our casual sex experiences, and she started telling me about one of the only 2 hookups she’s had in her entire life. At the beginning, she only mentioned that it had happened and that she had not liked it too much, how it felt empty, etcetera, basically not going into detail, but then she noticed I got very hard (which was a surprise for me, also), and that’s when she began giving me all sorts of details, which made me very horny.
She told me this had happened before meeting me, which made me feel safe, until a doubt entered my mind. “When was this? With who?”, things like that.
Next time we met, I wanted to spice things up saying things like “you surprised me with the story you told me the other day”, “it was very hot hearing about it”, etc, but she got awkward immediately and confessed it had happened 1 month into my latest trip. I was angry and hurt immediately, and we discussed never seeing each other again, but she was very reluctant to make it happen and has been on my house almost every day ever since, saying she loves me and wants to make it work.
I asked for all the details about the incident and full thing, and she gave them to me (I am open to answer questions here about it).
I have felt anger, sadness and all in-between, but a part of me does not want to leave her, and sex has only gotten better. Technically, we were not exclusive (at least not vocally), and I also had a fling with some overseas, which she suspected as well.
Thing is, lately I have started to get really horny about the whole thing and I have been openly it saying things like:
– “I like that you went to his house and fucked him”
– “I like that you were a little slut for him”
– “I love how easy it was for him to fuck you”
– “I adore that you stopped being perfect to get some cock”
– “I imagine you bending over that bed and shaking your ass and that makes me hard”
I have asked if she finds this weird, how I am processing the pain of her being with someone else from this angle, and she says that it’s not weird if it’s helping me cope with the whole thing, that she appreciates that I open to her and that she likes that I think of her this way, “which means I must really like her”.
I have several questions:
- Am I a cuckold?
- If I was, does this girl sound like someone who would like to experience it with me? (I am reluctant about this, maybe this is a one time thing)
- Was it cheating?
- Why do I get so hard at the thought of her being fucked by someone else?
#4 concerns me because to put it simply: I satisfy her pretty well, I am pretty well endowed, have a bodybuilders physique, and are overall very dominant and arrogant, sometimes.
She said that sex with him was pretty mid, forgettable and that she regrets the whole thing because it put whatever we had in danger, but she also insists in that technically it was not cheating and that she had to try something new for herself, etc.
I am very conflicted and I found this group and I would appreciate your thoughts.
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