Initially wasn’t ok with hubby watching me have sex [Hotwife’s Perspective]

When we started our lifestyle I had a clear rule of not wanting hubby to be present there…neither watch nor join . I don’t know why but this was something that came in my mind the moment we discussed about the lifestyle. After the initial lifestyle discussions and exploring the topic researching on the dynamics online we came up with a set of rules each…And he was keen on watching me or joining me or record it atleast but i wasn’t ok with it ,i said him will explain all the details later but i don’t want him there watching me naked with another man although he has seen my naked body a million times and done everything with me .He understood and accepted my rule and my first 6 months of lifestyle took place with him in the other room . Although during the very first lifestyle sex with another man, the guy was an experienced one in the lifestyle and insisted that since its the first time I’m taking a new dick in my life it is important atleast my hubby kisses me as this guy slowly would insert his cock inside me for those initial few seconds and then maybe u can ask him to leave…I somehow understood it as hubby was wanting to be there too ..so i called hubby when we both were naked and him on top of me ready to enter my pussy..I held hubby and kissed as the guy was slowly entering my pussy and i asked hubby to not look down at my pussy and just kiss me which he did, then i asked him to leave the room .That was the only visual hubby got for about initial 6 months of our lifestyle. How did u guys do initially in the lifestyle feel free to share and discuss. I can’t explain it tbh on why but i really felt not ok for him to when i am naked and enjoying sex with other guys.